vaccines

Well, I am learning that I shoudln't say that I will never do something because I keep adding things to my list of things I said I'd never do as a mother....now added to the list: questioning the vaccine schedule. It's a personal thing and I know can be quite controversial and so each person needs to do what they feel is best for their child. I have been getting Leah vaccinated at the rate that the doctors reccommend but have been reading about the high level of aluminum toxicity in the shots and may think about spreading the shots out a bit. She'd still get them all but just in less potent forms. I am most concerned about the MMR vaccine which is rec when she is 1. That is the one that a lot of people think contributes to autism (which may or may not be credible) I am looking into delaying that vaccine until she is at least 2. Given that she is a breastfed baby and probably will be until she is 18 months or so (we'll see about that but that's my present goal) tied with the fact that she's not in daycare, it is ok. Again, it's a personal choice and Julian and I will make the decision for what's best for Leah after careful thought and research and talking with Leah's doctor. Of course if anyone has actual research about the issue, I would be happy to read it. I just don't want people telling us what to do because it gets annoying. My parents did a great job of hearing me talk about it and said that they know we will do what's best for Leah. Of course if everyone doesn't vaccinate, then things could get bad in the US but we aren't considering NOT vaccinating...just delaying the schedule. There are books written about this and I have checked one out from Dr. Sears that has an alternative schedule that is supposed to be better for their little bodies.

Today my parents came from sacramento and had lunch with us. It was nice to see them, but Leah started crying everytime my dad looked at her. It was hilarious. I have no idea why she was so scared haha. My dad just cracked up. I think he scared her bc he laughed really loud when he saw how chubby she is getting and she got mad at him.

Leah is crying and needs to eat. Ok over and out.

sleep??

Well, Leah woke up every single hour last night....It might have been because I left during her bedtime to go to a yoga class or it could have been growth spurts, hungry, etc...who knows. I was tired this morning though!!

She just got her bath and now I am going to hold her for a bit. It's hard only seeing her for an hour a day. I got home at 6:00 bc I had a 3 hour dentist appt after work. Ugh. I can't wait to stay at home with her!!!

staying home...just for a day

Well, Friday sucked and the kids were awful. They didn't listen to me hardly at all and I left very frustrated....so I thought about it over the weekend and I decided to stay an extra day at home this week with Leah and just enjoy her. I spend too much time with other people's kids and not enough with my own, so I am going to start taking days off to be with her...I'll prob take 2 in March and a day in May and then a day whenever I need it for my own sanity. There are 97 school days left. The worst thing that can happen is they get mad that I am taking days and fire me. Then I get to stay home with Leah even more! :)

Tomorrow we are going to gymboree at 12:30 with a few girls from my mommy group. They go each Monday and I don't get to go so we are going. I am super excited :)

This weekend I actually did a few things for myself which felt nice. I got my eyebrows waxed on Saturday and then I went to a yoga class at Lululemon today. After that I got a few things

at sephora including nail polish and I painted my nails for the first time since Leah was born. Doesn't sound like a lot but it was nice.

Right now, Julian is playing with her with Sophie her giraffe and she is laughing a lot. She thinks it's just the funniest thing besides her Daddy.

I am off to grade some papers so I feel less guilty for staying home tomorrow :)

big day

Today Leah slept in her bed for naps and didn't need to be rocked to sleep! Let's just hope that she can continue it into the night. Julian keeps going in to check her and she's been ok for about 15 minutes already and hasn't cried so maybe she will go to sleep on her own. It might just be Julian's mom's touch though....let's see what happens :)

A girl from high school went into labor today and I got all excited just because I remember being there not so long ago. I even was a little jealous of her for some reason. Not a lot but just like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. It was such a special time. I am happy that we are where we are now though because I love how much Leah trusts me now and her little personality and I love that it's easier to figure out what she needs, etc.

Tomorrow we have baby sign language class :) I swore I wasn't going to do it but then I just added it to a list of things I said I wouldn't do. I think it is going to be really good.

She is in the room babbling to her stuffed rabbit that Bri got her. She just loves that little one.

oops

Today I went to pump in the storage closet like usual....and it was time to go bc the bell rang so I packed up everything, secured the milk, put away the pump parts, etc. I headed out on my way to go get my kids. I forgot one thing...well, I mean two things (literally). I forgot to fix my shirt so there I walked out the office with my top not on right and my bra out completely. Luckily I was just in the office and my friend saw but geez, I can't believe that happened!

Could have been worse I suppose!

Leah rolled over from her tummy to her back the other day for the first time. She's been laughing too. I just love her.

dr. appt

4 mont appt...

I saw a different doc bc mine just had a baby....I asked him a million questions and found out:

Leah's head mark that is red is fine. I don't need to worry about it.

By the time she is 6 months, we need to be prepared to continue any bedtime routine that we have implemented. Since we rock and nurse her to sleep, we either need to know that we'll be doing that for quite some time OR we need to break the habit before which is often done with the "Cry it out" method. I am not against other parents doing this, but do not want to do it with my own child at this time, but I know it might eventually have to be done. I mentioned to julian about doing it and he has a similar attitude to me so we agreed that we would revisit it when she's 5 months.

I mentioned how she cries all the time in the car and he thinks that Leah gets motionsickness. This makes sense bc Julian and his mom both get it.

we can start rice cereal but I am opting to wait util 6 months which is actually recommended.

shots were a killer....she is weepy.

ps

one year ago today, I found out I was pregnant with Leah....I had suspicions bc I was super hormonal, was peeing allllll the time already, and was very very bloated.

I was in LA and Julian was in SF. I brough tests that I had ordered online in bulk bc they were way cheaper....so he knew I would be taking them and was ok with it. I took one and got a faint line. I was with Paige and she freaked out and said that any line meant that I was pregnant. I couldn't believe it so she made me hold my pee for several hours and we went out and got a test that either said YES or not pregnant. And I took the test and shut my eyes and prayed and told God that I promised if I was pregnant that I would be the best mom that I could. Then when I opened my eyes it said YES! and I started crying. Then Paige made me test once more...actually what she did was went and took the test and dipped it into the cup herself. She got a false positive once and didn't want that to happen to me. Then once she saw the second YES! she jumped up and down and started screaming and we were laughing and jumping and scared her poor little son (who was 1 then) and he started crying!

I sent julian a picture of the preg. test but his phone didn't get picture texts at the time...so I told him on the phone and he was so happy he almost cried.

Speaking of crying, Leah is getting fussy wondering why I am not playing with her. I moved her to my lap and she's watching me type this but it will only last so long. I think I hear Julian so I'm off to play with the baby and do yoga.