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one year ago today, I found out I was pregnant with Leah....I had suspicions bc I was super hormonal, was peeing allllll the time already, and was very very bloated.

I was in LA and Julian was in SF. I brough tests that I had ordered online in bulk bc they were way cheaper....so he knew I would be taking them and was ok with it. I took one and got a faint line. I was with Paige and she freaked out and said that any line meant that I was pregnant. I couldn't believe it so she made me hold my pee for several hours and we went out and got a test that either said YES or not pregnant. And I took the test and shut my eyes and prayed and told God that I promised if I was pregnant that I would be the best mom that I could. Then when I opened my eyes it said YES! and I started crying. Then Paige made me test once more...actually what she did was went and took the test and dipped it into the cup herself. She got a false positive once and didn't want that to happen to me. Then once she saw the second YES! she jumped up and down and started screaming and we were laughing and jumping and scared her poor little son (who was 1 then) and he started crying!

I sent julian a picture of the preg. test but his phone didn't get picture texts at the time...so I told him on the phone and he was so happy he almost cried.

Speaking of crying, Leah is getting fussy wondering why I am not playing with her. I moved her to my lap and she's watching me type this but it will only last so long. I think I hear Julian so I'm off to play with the baby and do yoga.

sleep

We finally got some....I think it is because she is used to having us around all the time and so she's happy. But hopefully it is also because of a few things...First, we have been taking her outside each day for about 30+ minutes....even when it was cold, we budled her and took her. Then we started giving her a warm bath each night an let her play in it for a little bit. Then we bundled her up and got her in bed before 9pm. She slept 5+ hours in a row the last two nights and then today she slept an additional 4 straight through after I nursed her. She also napped better during the day which helped as well.

She gets her shots on Wednes. though, and I am sure this will throw things off. I hope she can continue to sleep like this....Once I went back to work, she would wake up every hour and a half.

Last night it took us almost 4 hours to get to my dad's when it should have taken 45 minutes. It was snowing and there was traffic and Leah was crying a ton...so we pulled over to a rest stop and changed her, fed her, changed her again, fed her again, and then changed her again. Then we knew she'd fall asleep. She took an hour and a half nap and we got to my dad's.

Right now Julian is running. I just fed the baby...she is laying next to me and concentrating very hard on her morning bathroom business. Then when Julian gets back, I am going to try to do some Yoga and get to the mall by 10 to buy an outfit for Leah's baptism.

vacation

Well, this has to be quick bc we are putting Leah to bed. It has been soooo nice to be home with Leah. I am having a lot of fun. She has been too overwhelmed with people, so I have mostly been holding her and we started taking her away from my family so that she feels better. We gave her a bath at 7 and had her in our room before 8pm. We are going to leave tomorrow and go stay at my parents house without them (to break up the drive) and then come back to WC Tuesday evening. We were originally going to stay here but I just think that it is better for Leah for us to go home early. I know my parents would want us to stay longer but they understand that we just have to do what is best for her. As for large family things, we have New Years with Julian's family which will most likely go similarly to how Thanksgiving went which was fun. And if she gets sad or scared, I will just go to bed earlier with her and Julian can stay out with friends if that's what he wants. I also know that Julian's mom will help me if I want to hang out still and switch off with me, but we'll just play that by ear. These days I am so tired anyway that it doesn't matter.

Leah is getting baptized on the 3rd in sac. We were going to go spend the night there saturday but because of how upset Leah has been getting around other people, I told Maryann that we will just meet her at the church. I think that's best.

I am not so proud of this last mommy moment....I ate garlic bread without knowing what it would do to Leah. She puked on me last night and then spit up a ton this morning. Maryann said her pee still smells like garlic. ugh.

Christmas Eve my extended family came over. It was fun. I held her most the night and she looked so pretty in her little dress. We saw my stepdad during the day and it was weird to not have my mom there, although I do enjoy his new girlfriend. It was fun to see Erica and Chris and Laurel too. We went back home to eat dinner but during Christmas dinner she started crying really hard so that was the end for me. I just left my plate at the table and upstairs we went. I really think that she dislikes larger groups.

My Grams and Gramps are here...Gramps turned 92 on the 26th. They just love Leah. It was so cute to see them with her...

On Christmas, she got tons of little presents but my faves are from tiff and Chris which were blanket and pillow pets which are a blanket that is a lady bug with a pillow face of a lady bug and then a pillow that wraps up as a stuffed animal that is a cute little bumble bee. And my dad started an education fund for her which was a great gift because we want to send Leah to private school and so it's a lot of moolah. We are trying to put money into an account for her for private school and a college fund.

At the snow, she has done well... we keep her bundled. This morning at about 7am it was snowing and we took her outside while it was snowing and showed her the snow. She smiled and then spit up all over me. It was pretty funny.

All in all, I loved this break so far but I can't wait to get back to our little haven in Walnut Creek. :)

xmas break!!!

Well, I am so excited to be on break and to be home with Leah... I can tell Leah is loving it too. She has started getting some separation anxiety and cries when I put her down lately though. I couldn't even get her to sleep in the swing like I usually can but I have loved all the cuddle time.

Yesterday other than a target run, Leah and I played all day.

Today I went out with my mommy friend Pam and her son Rhys (pronounced reese). We got breakfast and then went to baby yoga. I thought this was where mommys did yoga lifting your baby, but I was wrong. It was yoga for the baby! She had fun when we stretched her out and fun looking at all the other babies. Then we hung out at her house for a bit until we came home. It is fun bc I get to be with Leah all day and talk to a friend at the same time. Pam and her husband even sang a song for leah and played a guitar which she enjoyed and we did a thing called chicks-n-chickens where a dvd thing leads you through songs and dances and the baby ends up sleepin. I put her n the frontpack and danced around the livingroom and out she went.

Right now Leah needs a change of diaper and maybe a new outfit. Speaking of that, I was weighing her today (13.02 lbs) and noticed her onesie had old poo all up the back. It wasnt just a stain either so either she pooed and her daddy didn't notice it went up her back or it didn't wash out of the onesie and we didn't notice but either way it was gross haha.

ok on that note, off we go to the changing station.

1 week until break!

Well, my second week of teaching is over (thank goodness) and only 4 and a 1/2 school days until break. Phew.

This weekend has been a nice family weekend for Julian, Leah, and myself. Yesterday we got some Christmas shopping done. This of course means buying Leah stuff-- we got her a cute snow jacket, 2 hats because the hats I just bought her were too small, and then a few books that she'll like....one for the bath and one that has a little mirror on every page for her to see herself as a frog and other animals. I think that Santa is going to leave those for her this year.

We bought our family ornaments too. Julian picked out one that is a washing machine that you pull a string and it lights up and you see the clothes spinning in the water. Mine is a snow family with a mommy and daddy snowman holding a baby snowman. It is so cute. For Leah we picked out a classic whinnie the pooh in a red wagon that says Baby's 1st Christmas. We will be getting her one ornament per year from us and saving them so one day when she moves out, she will have 18+ ornaments that recount her years at home as a kid.

The tree is up and decorated. I tried to pull a box down from the bedroom and felt a pop where my c-section incision is...it hurt so I iced it but it feels okay today. If it gets worse, i will email my doctor, but it feels fine right now.

I am still looking for Julian's camera because we need to print out pictures but it is nowhere to be found. It's probably somewhere obvious and I keep missing it.

Right now Julian is playing videogames and Leah is in the frontpack. When she gets fussy, he bounces on the yoga ball and still continues saving the world from aliens or whatever. What a hero :)

ugh

bad work day...this is the hardest class I have had yet.

tonight I dressed Leah as a reindeer and she took a picture with Santa at my work. It was pretty cute....athough some kids tried to touch her and now I am paranoid she might get sick. To be clear, only one girl touched her hand and then I left bc I freaked out.

So now we are at home and have a fire and Leah is eating. She is still in her reindeer outfit.

first week done....only 30 something more to go

Well, the first week wasn't as horrible as I thought. I usually see Leah between 3:30 and 4:30 and then all weekend.

I am not sure how much she weighs but I want to weigh her tonight if I go to the baby store with my stepmom. I have to return a book that I checked out there so we shall see.

I still think that I want to be a stay at home mom for a few years but we'll see how it goes this year.

Brandi came and visited last weekend and we had fun. I felt kind of bad though because gone are the days where we can do a whole lot bc it's hard to with Leah, but she understood.

Ok well off to dinner and the baby store!

ps-Leah has been having a lot of pooping explosions.